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Sunday, 21 October 2012


Instalment Four.

I said on my last blog that I would share some of the strange things that were happening to me on this my birthday month on my last blog, but due to certain circumstances, I am obliged to hold fire on them till the timing is right. So I will continue with the stuff that I Have already been throwing at you. But before I do I will share something I found out quite by chance about a week ago that has kept me puzzled since it first arrived on my doorstep in 1996. A guy arrived at this house where I was renting a room looking for me. So the owner called me out to meet him. He, said to me I have some papers for you to sign. Your wife wishes to divorce you, so I need you to sign these papers if you will. So puzzled, but quite willing to oblige, I signed them. Later, and until a week ago it had crossed my mind times why did my wife a devout Catholic want to divorce me. That was definitely not in keeping with the strangled faith I had been dragged up in. You can read about that in my book, and the sequel to it coming up. Anyway, my puzzled mind was satisfied by one of those strange happenings I mentioned that was happening to me this month. 

My friend and I were having something to eat after he had me on his radio show, when he noticed this man and a woman entwined in a spiritual conversation. I also noticed them. Now by whatever strange coincidence you may deem it, or otherwise, we both left at the same time. But it gets more intriguing because the lady was in deep conversation with the man with her, right beside my car, and my friends car next to me. Then to put the icing on the cake, my friend said to me, should we talk to them. I said you talk to them. I consider myself a teacher, not a student. Been there. So he did. And do you know what, we winded up going back to this lady’s house and my friend fixed up a problem that she was having trying to contact her son on skype in Australia. It was later that I found out from her, that my marriage could not have been annulled had not my wife divorced me in civil law. So at last my curiosity has been satisfied, but not my sense of wisdom behind it all. I believe in building Bridges, not Barriers.

I am going to leave you with a little poem that was given to me many years ago. As parents, teachers and lovers I think we should take a good look at this poem. It came to me when I needed it most, like so many other things have

          My happiness is me, not you.
          Not only because you may be temporary,
         But also because you want me to be what I am not.
        I cannot be happy when I change
        Merely to satisfy your selfishness.
        Nor can I feel content when you criticise me for not
         thinking your thoughts,
        Or for seeing like you do.
         You call me a rebel.
         And yet each time I have rejected your beliefs
         You have rebelled against mine.
         I do not try to mold your mind.
         I know you are trying hard enough to be just you.
         And I cannot allow you to tell me what to be,
         for I am concentrating on being me.

         You said that I was transparent

         And easily forgotten.
         But why then did you try to use my lifetime,
         To prove to yourself who you are?

You might say what happened to her. Well Michelle choose to move on at the age of twenty. I also knew a beautiful lady called Michelle who found it too hard to stay with us. I mentioned it in my book.

I hope that I am reaching out to some of you. Maybe I have something to offer you .The talent entrusted to me, I believe is for you to consciously determine what you want to be. To identify yourself until you become one with yourself. It's not an easy slog, but the rewards are more beautiful than I could ever express.

Tuesday, 16 October 2012

Journey into the Cosmos

Installment Three

The purpose of the central system of the mind is not to screen things out, but to let things flow in and then have a ball tossing them in all directions, just to see where they can take us.
I’ve been involved in this for nearly twenty five years, and I never cease to be amazed at the wonderful things that have taken place in my life, and all the new growth that it has brought me for the essence of my humanity. Read my book if you want proof of that and even that is only the tip of the iceberg. At the merry age of nearly eighty five I am only starting my journey into the Cosmos.
Until you learn to trust your gut feelings, and then believe in them, you will always be a sad reflection of yourself. I know, I’ve been through those very depressing doors. And something else I have very little time for. Like, when people say, oh I’m to do this that or the other. Age like everything else is only in your head. I proved that to myself when I changed my life around at the age of sixty. The very moment you say no to life, it doesn’t want to know you anymore. Its doors are automatically closed to you.
People have crazy self-defeating ideas about age. Duke Ellington was passed over by the Pulitzer Prize Committee at the age of sixty, and he said, well obviously God didn’t want me to be too famous too young. And there’s my fellow country man Bernard Shaw who fell out of a tree he was pruning and fractured his leg, at the age of ninety six. I don’t think I need to say anymore, except to say, spend the afternoon you can’t take it with you.
Trips outside yourself are a worthless venture. They lead you nowhere. You may travel to all round the earth and see all the wonders it has to offer you, but when you get back who are you faced with in the mirror. Yes, you with all your loneliness, confusion, and what crap you may have gathered if you’re living life from the outside, and not the inside. Till next week when I hit eighty five please have as much fun as you can. As this is my birthday month strange things are happening to me and I will share some of them with you.


Thursday, 11 October 2012

Jesus Christ

Now that I have started the ball rolling with a number of bits and pieces that helped me to open my mind to a new way of using it for the benefit of others and myself. And when I say others, I leave the door open for them for them to close it anytime they wish. But I very sincerely ask them to look at the wider picture before they close it. I am a great believer that anything contrary to our own interest, should be allowed its own justifiable explanation. Oppose my point of view by all means, but please be honest, and in someway intelligent about it.
Now I must tell you, that in no way do I call myself a religious person, but a Spiritual one. The reason for that will be spelt in no uncertain terms in my next book And I make no attempt to hide the fact that I am an out and out fan of the philosophy of Jesus, but not from the view of the teaching I was brought up with. So now that I have declared my feelings for Jesus, I am now going to give you you something I found in a book that I read quite a few years ago that helped me to reach the beliefs I now have today. This is an acknowledgement of Jesus by Napoleon while he was exiled on the Rock of ST. Helena.
Alexander, Caesar, Charlemagne and I, myself have founded great empires, but upon what did these creations of our genius depend? Upon force, Jesus alone founded His Empire upon love and to this very day millions will die for Him. I think I understand something of human nature and I tell you, all these were men and I am a man: none else is like Him.

Jesus Christ was more than a man. I have inspired multitudes with such an enthusiastic devotion that they would have died for me, but to do this it was necessary that I should be visibly present with the electric influence of my looks, my words and my voice. When I saw and spoke to them I lightened up a flame of self-devotion in their hearts. Christ alone has succeeded in so raising the mind of men towards the unseen that it becomes insensible to the barriers of time and space.

Across a chasm of eighteen hundred years, Jesus Christ makes a demand which is beyond all others difficult to satisfy. He asks for that which a philosopher may often seek in vain at the hands of his friends, or a father of his children or a bride of her spouse, or a man of his brother. He asks for the human heart. He will have it entirely to Himself. He demands it unconditionally and forthwith His demand is granted.

In defiance of time and space, the soul of man with all its powers and faculties, becomes an annexation of the Empire of Christ. All who sincerely believe in Him experience that remarkable supernatural love towards Him. This phenomenon is unaccountable - it is altogether beyond the scope of man’s creative powers. Time, the great destroyer, is powerless to extinguish this sacred flame. Time can neither exhaust its strength nor put a limit to its range. This is it, which proves to me quite convincingly the divinity of Jesus Christ.
                    Installment Two

Wednesday, 3 October 2012

Something Written

I have titled this entry Something written because that is exactly what it is. I wrote this a number of years ago with the intention of putting it on a c.d. and then adding some music to it, to try and keep it more pleasing, or interesting. I get bored very quickly when I get caught up with dialogue that seems to resemble on with little sense of value in it for me. And I must also make this quite clear to those of you who wish to read, or follow my blog, that in no way do I wish to criticize anyone, or anything who walk across my path. But being a human being, and prepared to accept full responsibility for everything I say and do, the axe may fall on someone’s head as well as mine. You can’t please everyone. Christ was a clear example of that.

Now that I have made my first and last confession. Why I say first and last confession is the simple fact that I leave my life open to all men or women on this earth to forgive me, or condemn me. Not just one person which I believe is nothing short of the ridiculous. I will elaborate about that in more detail in my next book.
So, here is the first instalment for what it’s worth. And some of it is in my last book. No proof writing here, or anything else, just straight from the heart.

My three years in Sydney brought me experiences beyond my wildest dreams good bad and indifferent. At the age of sixty three a whole new world opened its doors to me, once I was prepared to accept what was thrown in my direction without fear or favour. When there is no enemy within, the enemies outside have little control. Rudolf Steiner enforces that statement with these words of his. If we do not develop within ourselves this deeply rooted feeling that there is something higher than ourselves, we shall never find the strength to evolve to something higher.
Apart from the music my life has come to revolve around, I found other wonderful venues to improve my mind, and my aging physique, such as discussion groups, swimming, tennis, snooker, golf, table tennis, indoor vollyball, dancing, walking , chess and reading. If you are really prepared to take the time and trouble, its amazing what can arrive on your doorstep. My fellow countryman George Bernard Shaw is right behind me with these words of his. Some men see things as they are and say why, I dream things that never were and say why not.

Then one day I got this brainstorm after going to a number of discussion groups that I had become involved in. Why didn't I get into the firing line by putting my emotions and beliefs on tape, then hand them around to be digested or rejected by those who listened to them. As long as I kept everything balanced to truthfulness, then I believed that I had a message to shere with others. It would be an unselfish venture, but if someone liked what they heard and offered me a cup of tea, or whatever, I would graciously accept. For as Jesus says, the labour is wothy of his labour.

When I started off, I put most of my ideas on a cheap recording cassette I had bought in a pawn shop, along with some music to fill in the gaps when I ran out of ideas. That turned out to be a milestone in my life, because I started to read more, and take a deeper interest in the lives of others. So, what follows is up to you make your mind up on. And I will stick my neck out where I think it’s necessary to add something that might it more colourful from my point of view, be it a lighter or darker shade of green, being Irish I naturally chose that colour. Instalment One.